I confess…I haven’t always taken stock in the little blessings life has handed me
This week I hit a milestone. Well it may not be big in everyone else’s eyes but it’s pretty big for me. I have actually managed to run, periodically, for a minute and forty five seconds straight. Now I know that might not sound like a big deal for the people out there that can run for five minutes or more without stopping but for me it’s huge. Before my two week break from the gym I had only managed to work up to running for a minute and a half every few minutes and then my knee just completely shut down on me.
Since I have been back in the gym it has been a struggle to work my way back up to that point and believe me every second of those runs that I worked my way up to hurt but I pushed through and pressed on. Now this week I have made it to that minute and forty five seconds and I could not be more proud of myself for that because it was not easy. Next week I am striving for that 2 minute mark which is the milestone that I have really been fighting to get to.
Today I told a lady that goes to the gym, who happens to be a little older than me, that sometimes when you are on those machines in the gym you have to keep telling yourself I think I can like the little engine that could. She wanted to stop before the time she had set out to do and I was right there next to her telling her that she could do it. She pressed on and she told herself that she could do it and she did. It is funny to think about how sometimes I can be so good at motivating others into pushing themselves and yet I can’t seem to do the same thing for myself.
I feed off the energy of the others in the gym and they motivate me but sometimes I think “shouldn’t I be able to motivate myself just like I do the other women that come in there”. I should feel motivated by the strides that I have made since I have even started working out and while I may not always see the changes as far as my body when I look in the mirror I certainly can feel them. Maybe for now I should just be happy and content in the changes that I can feel in my body instead of being angry and frustrated at the changes that I can’t exactly see when I look in the mirror.
I think that sometimes when we are searching for those big results that we are rushing to get to we may just miss the joy that comes in the small blessings that occur along the way. Losing weight is a journey that is much like any journey in life to one goal or another. It is one step at a time, one accomplishment at a time, and one milestone reached at a time. Until next time…enjoy the little blessings along your journey!!!
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