The Change Is In the Mind, Not Just the Body

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Weight loss more than physical changes

It feels good when other people start to notice the changes in you that you sometimes forget to stop and see. I mean I am starting to feel the changes in my body and noticing little things here and there but as far as looking in the mirror and seeing the change everyone else is telling me they see, I don’t, not yet anyway. 

I know I’m a ways off from being able to notice any drastic changes but I think part of the reasoning for that is because in my mind I’ve looked a certain way for so long it’s difficult to psychologically get past seeing myself as the fat girl. I wonder if, even when I loose the weight that I want to lose, if I won’t still look in the mirror and see the person who started out on this journey. Losing weight is so much more than just the physical aspect of things. 

There’s this whole psychological aspect that most of those people who you see bragging about the weight they lost on television don’t like to share and talk about. When you think of yourself in a certain way for the better part of your life it’s a little scary to actually realize that that person you were is not going to be who you are at the end of the whole journey. I’m not saying that I won’t welcome the changes, just that I’m a little apprehensive of them. But in the end I know that change is inevitable and change is ultimately good. 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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New Level, New Approach!

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New Level New approach

Okay so the trainer that works at the gym gave me a new approach that he wanted me to try to my workout. It’s just a way to switch things up a bit and give my body a surprise jolt and give it something else to get used to. So far so good. It seems to be working out pretty good and I feel like I am pushing myself to another new level in my working out. 

I’m pushing myself to do things that I wasn’t really sure I could do but have been pleasantly surprised in finding out that I can really do anything I set my mind to. I really am feeling the change in my body and people are also starting to take notice in the changes as well. I feel muscles developing where they once were but had gone away. 

I feel stronger and more resilient lately and while I can’t say that I don’t have my repeated share of injuries still, I can say that I never let it stop me. I suppose I even feel my stomach shrinking in terms of my eating because, while I have never been a person that can eat a lot in one sitting (I literally can get full in about 7 or 8 bites of food), I find myself getting full in even less bites, and I am having to really learn how to scale down my portion sizes because I just can’t eat much at all. I am snacking better, making sure to snack on fruits and nuts or even drinking coffee late because that will actually make me feel full and not hungry. 

I have even managed to have willpower and stay away from most sweets. That’s not to say that I won’t ever have anything sweet again but I know that I have to refrain from it for a while so that I can give in to my sweet tooth so easily. I am very proud in my progress and I am looking forward even more to seeing where this journey is going to lead me to. 

 

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Why Is Exercising Making Me Feel So Exhausted?

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So I love when I am active and healthy and I am making sure that I workout every single morning, no excuses. It has brought back my confidence in myself, it has made me feel, overall, healthier. At times I can feel that it is increasing my energy again because my energy levels were almost non-existent. 

But I will admit that lately, while my energy level seems to be increased directly after my workout, once the day sets in and I’ve showered and dressed and I am ready to start my writing for the day then the tiredness settles in. I get sleepy and exhausted after I’ve done an hour, sometimes an hour and a half of cardio and another half hour to an hour of strength training, and all I want to do is sleep and recharge. 

I have to find some type of vitamin or something that is going to help me balance this out because I hate feeling so good from my workout one minute and then turn around and feel so exhausted and unable to do my work for most of the rest of the day. I didn’t think that exercise was supposed to make you inactive for the rest of the day, which is how I feel it is making me in some ways. 

Don’t get me wrong, I love exercising and feeling like I’m in shape, or at least like I am getting in shape, and I love that I feel better in general health wise. I love my morning workouts and without them the rest of my day wouldn’t go right. But I don’t love that this extra energy that is present directly after my workout is finished doesn’t carry over into the rest of my day and it is very frustrating. But like everything else I will get through it and I will find a balance or a solution and perhaps the right vitamin. So that’s my rant for today. Hope your journey is going well! 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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I Admit I Am a People Watcher In the Gym

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Okay I don’t mean that in the creepy way of course where you can just feel people looking at you and you want to yell at them “what are you looking at” (lol). I mean that in the flattering, I wonder what their routine consists of and how do I move to that phase in my journey, kind of way. 

I will glance at the person one the treadmill next to me, or two treadmills away, and see them running and think “I can’t wait to get back to the point where I can run” and wondering when that day is going to come. Or I will see these women who on the outside don’t look like they can lift what I see them lifting in the gym but I look and just say to myself “wow”. 

I wouldn’t say that it is envy because I know that everyone has different goals they are working toward and their goals may not be what mine are. Also I know that it is foolish to wish you were in anyone else’s shoes because you don’t know what walking in their shoes is really like. However, I look not only in awe but also in frustration because my mind keeps telling me that I should have reached that level by now but body keeps telling me “no not yet, be patient” and I don’t know if I’ve told you all this before but patience has never been my strong suit and I am hard-headed. 

My hard-headedness usually ends with me in more physical pain then I would’ve been if I had listen to my body instead of my mind. Those people I watch, I watch them in admiration because they inspire me and make me believe that I can get to that level, but only when my body and my mind are both in agreement. But I can’t lie and say that I wish my body would hurry up already, I’m ready to go to the next phase of this journey, at least in my mind anyway! 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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If Only My Body Could Do What My Mind Says It Can

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I can’t wait to shed at least half of the weight that I want to shed. I know that it’s not really about the number but rather about being healthier but there are some things I want to be able to do in the gym without having physical ailments get in my way and I know that getting more of this weight off will help with that. 

Right now I just have to push through the pain without overdoing it and hurting myself to the point where I can’t workout at all. I want to be able to run on the treadmill like I had once before but I can’t even walk for a thirty minute interval without getting sharp pains in my leg and the pain in my knee kicking in halfway through it. 

I look around at the other people on the treadmills running and I want to be able to run as well and ordinarily I would just ignore the pain and run anyway but in the past when I would run before my body was really ready I would end up suffering the consequences sooner rather than later so I’m trying my best to be good this time. But it’s hard to have my mind tell me that I can do something and have my body be in such disagreement with that. 

In my mind I’m already able to run marathons but my body knows better. See it’s not so much about the number for me as it is about the relief on my body so that I won’t be in so much physical pain. I can only imagine how much more effective my workouts will be once the pain lessens. I’m waiting for that day to come but until it does I will just have to stay steadily on the course I am on and persevere. That just means I will have to increase the time of my workouts since I can’t increase the intensity just yet. But I do love working out!

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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It Feels Good To Know That It’s Working

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Glad to know that this is working

So when I started this weight loss journey again I said that I wasn’t going to get obsessive and weigh myself every single week like I did before, but that I was just going to do one weigh in at the beginning of each month. So today was that day that I weighed in and guess what. I have already lost 9lbs! 

I can’t even begin to say how proud I feel of myself and how happy I am because I was really worried that I wasn’t going to see too much of a loss if any. But it’s working, it really is working. Not only that but I am feeling so much more confident and energized since starting back at this and it is even helping in the area of my creativity and my writing. I feel like everything is improving and I feel like it all started with me working out again. 

Now make no mistake the physical aspect of working out and losing the weight I want to lose is definitely an important factor, but it’s not even just that. It is the mental changes that it’s making in me and the emotional changes that working out has made in me. When I look in the mirror lately, yeah I see that I still have a long way to go to get to my goal, but I see the woman that I want to be slowly coming into focus. 

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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Foolishly Pushing the Limits Of My Body

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I pushed it slightly a little too hard today in the gym and couldn’t push as hard as I wanted to because my leg began to feel like I might have pulled something. That’s another one of my downfalls that I have to work on correcting, listening to my body. I think about 20 minutes into the first machine that I was on I could feel this pain in my leg and like something was pulling but even though my body was trying to tell me that I should’ve stopped, my mind said “don’t you dare” and psychologically I was thinking I can’t be a quitter so I kept going until my first 45 minutes was up. It was clear when I got off the machine that I had overdone it. 

The bad thing is I was still trying to figure out if I could go ahead and do my mile on the treadmill. I did some weights and things (by the way it was legs and abs day so that probably didn’t help it) and was still limping a little. The trainer that I consult with on occasion told me that it was most certainly not a good idea to do the treadmill and although it pained me to leave the gym feeling as if I had not completed my entire workout, I listened to the word of someone who clearly knows more about this weight loss thing than I do. 

Talking to the trainer also helped in another area because we got to talking about the proper things to eat and the nutritional value of some things as opposed to others. She clued me into a lot of different things as far as the right nutritionally rich meals and options for healthy snacks to eat. There is so much more to this whole healthy lifestyle thing then just the exercise and even choosing what we think is healthy to eat. 

It’s clearly a lot about nutrition that I need to read up on and a lot of meal choices that I have to sort through. I said in a previous post that I really needed to focus in on my eating habits and make sure that they are not doing more harm than good. Talking to her today was very enlightening and showed me that I have so much more to learn about this weight loss and healthy eating thing. But I’m ready!

 

Jimmetta Carpenter

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