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There Are Times When the Towel Should Be Thrown In

Well when I anticipated going in to this week I had hoped that things would all go according to my plan, along with the schedule, and without any hiccups. I should’ve known better because I can never plan around mother nature (snow delays at my child’s school), and physical pains that creep up on me unexpectedly. You would think that with my size that I would anticipate these physical pains, particularly since I went for quite some time without exercising but it always seem that I have some type of physical ailment that pops up when I least need it too.

Today I missed my workout at the gym because as soon as I got to the gym after dropping my daughter off at school the school nurse called me to come pick her back up because she wasn’t feeling well. In some ways I think it might have been a blessing in disguise because my ankles were really bothering my last night and I was truly wondering how I was going to get through a workout with my ankles in such pain.

Sometimes even the most pesky little obstacles will creep up to let us know that even when we want to go all in, we have to still be aware of when we need to back off and ease up so that our body can get the appropriate recovery time. That’s not to say that I think my daughter feeling bad was in any way a good thing but I think that God knows me well enough to know that my daughter (or something she needs) is probably the only thing that could get me to possibly slow down and examine the current situation and perhaps deviate from the normal routine that I had in my mind.

I get told constantly that I have to listen to what my body towels me and not what I keep trying to tell my mind to tell my body. In my mind I think “I can keep going, all or nothing” and I try to communicate that to my body but in reality my body is telling me “you have to ease up so that I don’t completely shut down and then you won’t be able to do anything”. Have to learn that my body has a say in this fight for healthiness and I need to listen to it. In my quest to never give up and not throw in the towel I have to learn when I am pushing a little too hard and may need to, in fact, throw in that towel.

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Week 2 Has Begun and I’m Still Pushing Through

Week 2 has started on my redo of this journey and this is the point where a lot of people with weight loss goals as a New Year’s resolution begin to fall off the map (seriously, that’s what the guys who work at the gym say) and go back to their old ways. So when I walk in today the guy at the desk said they were glad that I didn’t seem to be like the others and that I was sticking with it, well seemingly anyway because it is only week 2.

I actually rested over the weekend because my leg was so sore that I almost couldn’t straighten it out and I could barely walk. Walking in the gym this morning I felt more rested but to be honest my leg was still a little sore. Not to mention, because of a 2-hour delay with schools, I didn’t workout as long or go as hard as I would’ve liked to but I’m kind of glad that I didn’t because I really don’t think my leg was up to it. The important thing, after all, is to keep moving forward and to keep pushing even when it gets hard, especially when it gets hard.

Now if I can just get my issues with food and the times that I eat straightened out then I think I would really have something that can work effectively here. But the food part is going to be another post for another day. Nevertheless, my workout week has started off relatively good and I hope that all of you out there are having a good start to your workout week as well! Don’t quit, hang in there!

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The Soreness of It All

I won’t lie and say that today was a piece of cake or that I was as excited to go to the gym as I was the first two days. In fact today was rough. I was so sore from yesterday and this morning all of my muscles were stiffened all over again. But I went to the gym anyway, with a sore leg and hurt knee, but I persevered and I got through my workout.

Granted I didn’t do as much as the day before but at least I powered through. I supposed it’s natural for my body to be sore the first week or two back working out after such a long time away from the routine of exercising. I will get through this and once I get back into the swing of things I know that the real issue that I have to deal with is my relationship with food.

I have to stop eating at bad times, not eating when I know I need to eat, and eating to comfort myself instead of actual hunger. However, I think that once I get back on track with my exercise routine it will curve some of my eating habits, and it will bring back some of the confidence I was loosing which will inadvertently help with the emotional eating issues. They say that loosing weight is really only 10% exercise, 10% mental, and 80% of how you eat. I’m starting where I know will begin to fix everything else, the exercise.

I knew this wasn’t going to be easy but I had forgotten how sore the body gets when you’re just starting out. I keep hearing my friends tell me not to overdue it because they know I have a bad habit of going to the extreme when it comes to working out and I really don’t know how not to push myself as far as I can go, it’s just usually I push a little further then I should. I can’t wait to get past the phase where I am in constant soreness. But I will press on!

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Fist Day Back Is Always the Hardest (So They Say)

Okay so I did it. I am extra proud of myself because it is snowing and the roads here weren’t exactly treated properly but I was determined not to let that stop me from going back to the gym today. I am so happy that I did and I was so excited. I even befriended a trainer already who helped get me started (the right way).

I will say that I had greatly overestimated how much I would be able to do on my first day back. I had it written out and everything. But once I got to it I discovered just how out of shape I had gotten and that I was not going to be able to do the cardio machines at the length of time or the intensity that I had initially planned. I hung in there for a pretty decent length of time though and I am even more excited to go back tomorrow.

I am not going to lie and say that I don’t hope to be able to do a little more tomorrow but I know that going is the first part of the battle and that once I get past that hurdle then nothing can stop me.

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I’m Starting Over Again: New Year, New Goals, New Agenda

I only just now realized that I have not blogged here in over a year, since March of 2013 to be exact. That should be the first indicator of how far I have fallen off of the exercise and health wagon. What’s even sadder is that I started soothing my soul with food again last year which was what got me to this point of needing to loose all this weight to begin with.

I had lost quite a bit and I was proud but then I wasn’t able to renew my gym membership last year and I couldn’t exactly focus enough at home to work out in the house and then last year was just such a terrible year financially for me that I just sort-of gave up. As a result I started eating poorly, a lot more emotional eating, and some of the weight that I loss has come back.

I am looking in the mirror staring at the woman that I was starting to say goodbye to and I am seeing her come back slowly and I don’t want her to. It’s not that I don’t love myself regardless, I have learned that I am a beautiful, and wonderfully flawed person who deserves to love and be loved no matter what my size is. But that unhealthier version of me that I had said goodbye to, that woman who wasn’t very confident in herself, who could barely move around without becoming winded and out of breath, who looked in the mirror and saw so many things that needed to be changed, and who didn’t feel very beautiful. I don’t want her to come back.

So I decided that I was going to get my health and my weight back on track this year. Today I went to go sign up at a new (more cost effective) gym and I am excited to be able to work out again. I even took a before picture this time and took note of my starting weight. I hate the idea of starting all over again but here I am having to do just that.

I will be blogging here more often, sharing my journey, sharing some exercise videos, sharing some healthier recipe ideas, and if I get up the nerve one of these days, perhaps even some of my own video blogs. I have also created a fanpage that you guys can check out and get even more updates through. I hope all of you out there who are also on a weight loss journey or on a path to become healthier, will help encourage me and I hope that I help to encourage you and keep each other pushing along. We’re all in this together even if the paths of our journey’s are very different.

Jimmetta Carpenter

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